Going Good...then

..yanno I haven't posted no posts means things are going good..but becuase hey I hung out with a friend & her family someone said to my mommy things to make her question if she & my dad were good parents to me. YES they are wonderful parents..so who was the birdie I dunno but very few could of said something to have seen me both on the SS Galaxy cruise ship first in a wheel chair then crutches (rping sprained ankle) & I think I know who it is; Mom wont tell me who but that's ok I don't care. I however thought she knew if I had an issue I'd say somethin.. *sighs*

...It's...going?

I don't know; I feel like I take a few steps forward in the right direction of being happy...

and then boom smack i get pushed back again. This time in the form of family I'd been staying with up til now. They are hurt & upset & I understand the basics of it.. Yet I feel like I'm having to apologize over and over. I have tried this week to only talk if I'm talked to; To give them their space

tonight well this morning I was told I didn't have to have the family in the profile just to be nice; well I still consider them family & friends & it turned into a fight or well not a fight but a heated discussion.. and all the time I have a pain in the pit of my stomach it's like... I'm sorry that I hurt you.. I don't know what else to say or do..and I pretty much told her..after she told me how she and her hubby did everything right made sure I knew I was cared for etc etc etc her sis comes on the rebound and scoops up what they worked so hard for..

Then I told herI was sorry and night becuase honestly..this is draining to read; it's 2:17am stl .. and later in reallife.. I love her and him but I'm happy where I am maybe I am making a mistake I don't know.. I feel so .. torn I guess is the word..


Lia

Eh..yep

its gonna be one of those days.. Oh well..as they say shit happens..I am nervous bout chemo but we'll see how it goes. I am pretty much NOT gonna talk about cancer shit on this cuz guess what probably majority of people who will read this think i am lieing anyways; why give em more fucking ammo? Nough said..

Ok..First Off

I will NOT list names or full conversations in my rants; Just causes more drama. Second I am doing this as a way of dealing with my own personal issues; Thus if you got a problem with how I express my anger keep it to yourself!.. k?

Frankly... Honestly... love secondlife.. but hate the drama as of late.

Given; some is my own fault I admit that and am trying to fix it..you know who you are & I am sorry for being well an idiot point blank..

The rest..not so much... I got no reason to lie I ain't lookin for pity; attention; and anything else I've been told I aparently need.

Honestly bump it not writting anymore tonight tired