...It's...going?

I don't know; I feel like I take a few steps forward in the right direction of being happy...

and then boom smack i get pushed back again. This time in the form of family I'd been staying with up til now. They are hurt & upset & I understand the basics of it.. Yet I feel like I'm having to apologize over and over. I have tried this week to only talk if I'm talked to; To give them their space

tonight well this morning I was told I didn't have to have the family in the profile just to be nice; well I still consider them family & friends & it turned into a fight or well not a fight but a heated discussion.. and all the time I have a pain in the pit of my stomach it's like... I'm sorry that I hurt you.. I don't know what else to say or do..and I pretty much told her..after she told me how she and her hubby did everything right made sure I knew I was cared for etc etc etc her sis comes on the rebound and scoops up what they worked so hard for..

Then I told herI was sorry and night becuase honestly..this is draining to read; it's 2:17am stl .. and later in reallife.. I love her and him but I'm happy where I am maybe I am making a mistake I don't know.. I feel so .. torn I guess is the word..


Lia